My mind has always been a factory of ideas and use/less knowledges that makes no sense. I am curious about almost everything and like to talk about a lot of interesting things. I like to debate and exchange interesting ideas with people and mostly am curious to learn. It’s not like I debate to win over someone, but rather to understand other’s views and perspective on the subject matter. However, every time I try to debate, I get a violent response and triggered people who do not want to understand my viewpoint. Sometimes for this reason, I feel alone, not being able to discuss my feelings as they are, and hope for myself to get more understanding about them. I am not alone, as per say, but my mind is. It’s alone because it cannot make others understand what it thinks, and in search of new ideas and knowledge, it gets addicted more and more to the reels and shorts and tiktoks, which isn’t good for the long term benefit of my mind. I’ve tried meditating, doing this and that, and the thing i’m doing currently, which is writing my thoughts in this notepad. I do not blame others for this tho, as not all should be like me or fit into my idea, but it’s true, sometimes, people feel alone even if they are surrounded by people, loved ones, family, friends etc. Something I’ve found interesting is that the AI models of recent times are still nerfed to the level that it’s really not possible to debate with them. I would assume its because these models are not made for communicating but rather getting answers to our questions. There has been a huge outrage when openAI released their GPT5 model, and replaced the existing 4o model. As per people on the internet, the 4o was much more better at communication than the 5, and few had been talking with it constantly, tweaking its skills and personalizing it to their liking with memories and custom prompts. Some had girlfriends, some had something else, who knows, but all wiped with one model upgrade. For me, it never helped to discuss even though I was using the 4o, maybe I was dumb and unable to tailor it to fit my needs, or simply maybe the model lacked the ability to fit my request. I’ve not tried other models extensively, as Claude has its rate limiting, even with paid versions, and Gemini simply doesnt seem to be able to form connection as like the GPT models. Although, recently Gemini has been touted as one of the best models in all categories, which was instantly beaten by the newer version of Claude’s model. At this point, I’m not aware of the model versions and their usability, their best abilities and uses, nothing, not even coding. But, maybe I will try some models later, and with prompt engineering, have a bot, that communicates with me. Although, I’m fully aware of people getting addicted to those chats hence I’m going to be cautious to not indulge myself too much into it.