I have found something interesting about my notes and writings, which genuinely shocked me. I cannot read my notes and thoughts myself.
Paragraphs feel long and boring, often I dont feel connected with them myself while reading. When I’m reading my notes, I forgot what I read and what I am trying to say with it. This is concerning to me, as I always hoped to connect with people through writings, as my spoken communication skill is not great, I would consider it even below sub par. I have noticed that if I start dumping my thoughts as they are on the notes, then they will be unstructured, naturally. I need to learn skills related to both writing and reading.
One best way to improve is to read my own writing, critiqe, then improve those criticisms on my own next writing. Now, I feel like my sentencences are long, lack of structure on paragraph, and the paragraphs themselves are too long. I focus too much on the looks, and design, hence I usually use justified paragraphs. Which, now according to myself ruins the readability.
Most of the time, I feel like I’m not doing enough, so I look for ways to improve myself. It feels heavy, knowing that you’ve not been the person that everyone thought you could be, including yourself. Hence, I try to write. Also which, I dont feel is fair, as people dont want to read someone’s sad rants and issues. That’s why I feel like I should also write when I’m happy, not just when I’m sad, bored or doing something.
From now on, I will also be working on writing projects, like essays and fantasy, or SciFi short stories, that I’m actually interested in. Hopefully, I will see a real improvement on my future writings, as more practise will improve my skills.